I’ve been really trying to find a conclusive answer to this question ever since I realized that I am Bi, and I think that I have come to the conclusion that it is something you need to figure out for yourself and become comfortable with. I remember trying to pray my gay thoughts away because growing up in a strict African and Christian home, there was no way I should’ve been thinking about those thing. Yet no matter how hard I tried to ignore it, it was still there because it is a part of who I am. I started to accept this, and I prayed to God and I said ‘Lord I know that you do not make mistakes and this is who I am meant to be. I want to live in my truth and I want you to give me the strength and courage to do this’ and honest to God I’ve never felt so free.
‘Either I kill myself, because I was simply unable to live up to what at the time I felt God required of me, or I choose life, accept myself, flawed as I am, and try to serve God in best way I can.’
You see the thing is, I have realized that I do not live for any human being but God alone. I no longer care what a homophobic person at church will say to me or try to convert me (although if I am in the mood, you BET I will drag you & pray for forgiveness after lol). I don’t really know if I can call myself a Christian because I don’t take anything from the bible. I personally feel like it is contradictive and just all round problematic to be honest. I know that I have a good relationship with God and that’s really what matters to me. It’s interesting to hear such disgusting homophobic comments come out of a supposedly devout Christian’s mouth at church when it is unbeknownst to them that I am Bi.
‘Religion has and is still being used to justify homophobia and violence against LGBT people’
It is hurtful. But like I said I’m here for God, so you do you and I’ll do me. I also know that there are religious people who accept everyone for who they are and that’s really amazing! I don’t bring up my sexuality at church because it’s actually none of anyone’s business. I am certainly not here to gossip so you can take that attitude somewhere else. Essentially, I’m saying fuck what you think is right and wrong. I don’t want to hear about it. You cannot change me because I am who I am, and I know that God loves me.
By: Rachel Kyeremeh
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Twitter: @RachelBadu_!
